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Well my second month of taking my weight loss journey seriously didn’t go as well as I would have liked. Total I only lost 2 pounds. Through the month I gained and loss but the net is loss of 2 pounds. In the past this would have devastated me. But now I look at my minor set back as a set up for success. I just love how my thinking has changed through this process. No longer am I making excuses for my lack of will power but acknowledging that this journey is not a quick fix. It is going to take longer than “lose 10 pounds in 10 days” fix. Honestly, I am okay with that. I am just so excited about this month success already! Daily I have to renew my mind! I am just going to continue to take one day at a time. I will continue with being consistent in tracking my food and not be lazy. I will diligently track my food! I will diligently workout! I will do whatever it takes to reach my goal. I am glad for this set back because it allows me to refocus. Everyday I have to remind myself to make better choices and I will!

Hey Overcomers! These last few weeks have been so incredible! To think my first blog was back in July but I didn’t get serious until September. The first month of seriousness[ is that a word?] I lost 12lbs! I am almost two weeks into my second month but I haven’t weighed myself. I weigh myself actually tomorrow. I know I’ve been saying this a lot lately ….but weighing myself twice a month sets me free from the daily panic of “up” and then “down” weight loss. If I want to examine my progress I simply look at my food diary. Everyday gets easier to say no. Today I even turned down German chocolate cake! My favorite cake of all time! Boy but when I say this handsome co-worker of mine asked me if I was losing weight I almost fell out my chair! I didn’t know one Lil comment could make me feel sooooooo good! Like “Yes! All my hard work and no thank yous are paying off!” I feel so encouraged!!!! I just can’t wait to reach my goal now because I know that with CONSISTENCY I will get there! I was able to turn down the cake today because I knew I was going to have cake tomorrow at a party I am attending. It’s all about perspective! It’s also cheaper! So many times I have spent $200 at Wal*Mart buying groceries to only go out to eat every day for lunch. It was just becoming ridiculous…not only weight/health wise but financially. My finances are on a diet! So my body is reaping that benefit as well. I am just too peachy because of the comment. Hurray!

Hello Overcomers!!!!

I like to call you all overcomers because we are on a path that most people dare not journey. We are overcomers because WE have decided to turn our lives around. Whether it is for health reasons, family, personal goal….we each decided to enter this journey and not quit! Sometimes we falter, we may even stumble but each day we are stronger and closer to our goal. EVERYDAY we choose progress! I can’t say enough how grateful I am to learn and grow through this process of weight loss. The journey of weight loss is uniquely different from other journeys one might take in life because our journey requires self-examination and knowing we DECIDED to get to this point of over indulgence. Whether we idly watched our weight increase or had a major role…. it is up to us to turn our situation around. I am learning that every meal is a choice. Every moment is never to small. It is the small decisions that turn into big ones. If I can just say “no” 87% of the time I am still progressing. The important factor is saying “no” more than I say “yes.” “No it maybe quicker to run through the drive-through but is it healthy….is it really cheaper?” What is the true cost of eating that piece of candy? Is it another 5 minutes on the treadmil? At first I hated this journey and the process of tracking, monitoring, counting. Now it doesn’t bother me as much. Yesterday when I was running on the treadmill … I heard myself cussing at the treadmil, like it was the treadmills fault that I had to run! But its not the treadmills fault or any other exercise equipment. =) I alone is responsible for my weight. I am now down 12lbs according to the doctors scale last Saturday. I know that my tracker says only 6. The truth is I gained 9lbs since joining buddyslim. Go figure. I don’t know what my weightloss is now. My mini goal is to lose another 15lbs this month.  I know I will reach my goal. If I am shy a few pounds I am okay with that too. I am never going to give up! I WILL REACH MY GOAL  and so will you! God bless Overcomers!

YES in a little over 2 weeks I have lost 10 pounds! I am elated! I was afraid to step on the scale because I did not want to get discouraged but I finally took the plunge and weighed myself. I have been eating well for 2 weeks staying within my 1200 calorie range, working out 4 times a week. I just feel renewed! I know nothing is impossible with God! I feel in control! I feel like there is nothing I can not do! LOL. Ya’ll I just feel so excited because I see the light at the end of the tunnel and there is NO DOUBT in my mind that I am going to make it. I took a few weeks to get in the swing of things but once I made up my mind that this is not a diet but a lifestyle change then I knew I was okay. I am okay because I know that this is not a quick fix but a process that will take time. That is okay to treat myself but is also necessary/discipline to say “NO.” It’s healthier on my body and my wallet to cook. I know what is going into my food when I prepare it myself. It is necessary to plan. The lack of planning causes impulsive decisions. No I am not perfect and that is okay to. I accept me now. I love me now. And when I reach my goal I will love me then too. But I will wait for acceptance for myself because I am worthy of it NOW.

I never really new what one step at a time meant until I began this weightloss journey. I am so happy because I have been successful for 14 days in a row with journaling my food, exercise, AND not getting on the scale. I have kept within 1200 calories all 14 days except for 2 cheat days. I am very proud of my self because I have not waivered in my quest. A few days ago my team celebrated a victory over the legal department. Our grand prize was a pizza party. I did not have one slice! I didn’t have a slice not because I believe you can’t treat yourself. Indeed it’s the exact opposite. I knew that I was going to eat out this week so I decided to wait and sure enough I have a date tomorrow! I am just so excited about my progress. I weigh in on Friday. I am nervous because I don’t want to be disappointed by the scale but I also know that no matter what the scales read I have made tremendous progress….one step at a time.

I am truly determined! I went to go workout today and I feel awesome! For the last 4 days I have tracked my meals at myfitnesspal and have managed to stay within 1200 calories. I have my meals planned for the week and I am so excited. I CAN LOSE WEIGHT! I decided to weigh myself once a week to keep my sanity. I also have decided to speak a daily affirmation- affirming what I believe. My affirmation has to deal with finance and weight. “I am a wealth manager and a healthy woman! I choose to manage the resources God gave me! I choose to eat the right foods! My body obeys my efforts to lose weight and I shall see the fruits of my labor!” Feel free to use this affirmation and speak it daily. Whether it is in front of the mirror while applying your makeup, doing your hair, or driving to work. I am a firm believe of the power of words and positive thinking. Blessings!

No matter how many hills are in this journey of weightloss…I am truly grateful. I am grateful because I am healthy and while I am in control of it….my goal is to stay healthy. This week I feel that atleast I am back on track with working out. Today is my third day of exercise and tomorrow will be my fifth. Once I reach my goal….because I will reach my goal…I can only think back and remember how I overcame. It’s not easy and we don’t always see the results we want to see immediately but I do decree and declare we all shall see the fruits of our labor. Sometimes your up and sometimes your down but if you decide to keep pushing through I promise you will make it. Everyday is a challenge but my mini-goal is just to commit to seven days. Seven days of being totally focused. Next Fridays weigh in is going to be awesome!

I won’t promise I won’t fall again but I will promise that I will get back up. These last couple of weeks have been absolutely totally free will. With my mom coming into town and helping my sister’s graduation be a success, I completely just didn’t have the energy to keep track. That is how I know that this process can not just be a diet but a lifestyle change. The comfort I have is knowing that although I may keep falling down I will never cease to rise again. I felt so much better after tonight’s workout. That I know I have to make it a integral part of my schedule. Ideally I would prefer to wake up and workout but I always seem to want to sleep into the very last minute. I am waiting for that trigger to go off in my mind that is stronger than my resistance to turn over. After all I do get up to go to work everyday because I am getting paid. It’s time I pay back my body with a better lifestyle. Ya’ll continue to wish me well and I will be posting my before and after pictures! = )

It’s official! I have crashed and burned. The saddest part is not having an excuse. I just threw in the towel for this journey. I don’t know where I began this downward spiral. After all the hope and desire I still crashed. My new desire is just to stay plugged in; if I can stay plugged into the community here that will be a blessing. Maybe I set my goals to high. Maybe I didn’t set them high enough. I just don’t know. I feel like I have been going through the emotions of life. I love life and I don’t want it to pass me by. I am not a shrink but maybe weight is a defense mechanism….against what I don’t know. I do know that I want to live. I want to be happy. Ignore the problem is ignoring the solution. I refuse to give up….again.

Thanks to Bette Jo I thought of the title for this blog. I am simply tired of being fat. Ha! I said it. I am fat! I am not thick….or extra curvy… although I am but when it boils down to it. This sista is fat. Yes I look good. Yes I know how to wear clothes and not let the clothes wear me but baby when I take the clothes off run for the light switch because the lights need to go off. LOL. I can laugh at myself because to be so confident as I am …..secretly I am ashamed. I know that I can be so much better. It does not matter how many men are attracted to me or value me…if I do not value myself. Health is so important. It’s not always about fitting into that dress ..although it is nice. I want to be healthy and I want to be happy. I don’t want to look in the mirror and try to dissect everything that is wrong with my body. I just know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. There is nothing impossible with God. So I place my hand into the Fathers and I release myself from the anxiety…stress of it all. Today I ate better and did 60 mins of cardio. I’m going to keep going like a train…”cho cho”! I will just take it day by day…or better yet meal by meal. Thank you buddies for always commenting and letting me know that this too will pass.